Tuesday, April 27, 2010

faithful.

This is a miracle.


My Great Texts' essay is due on Thursday, April 29, 2010 at 12:00 PM. It is Tuesday, April 27, 2010 at 9:00 PM, and I haven't started. I should have started last week. But I didn't. (Don't ask me why.)

I have just rushed to the library and claimed a spot in the most isolated study carrell I could find, which is pretty hard to do this week seeing as everyone and their mom decided to come here all at once to finish last-minute papers, projects, and the like. My humble desk of choice is by an electrical outlet, of course. I anticipate that it's going to be a long night, which means lots of electricity will be needed to keep the technology running.

I turn on my computer, dreading the next 36 hours' duration, which will mostly be full of desperation, frustration, and illogical articulation. In a final effort of procrastination, I check my email. (Enjoying the end rhyme yet? I'm easily amused in states of exhaustion-ation.)

Lo and behold, an email from my professor titled "Papers Papers Papers! (Did I hear extension?)" is sitting in my inbox. My heart skipped a beat. And I wished my hands would move faster. I just couldn't seem to open it fast enough.

Yes, 'tis true! Now my paper - nay, (essentially) the crowning achievement of my career in Great Texts - is due on Monday, May 3, 2010 at 3:00 PM.

I've been praying that God would multiply my time. It's sort of an odd prayer if you think about it. I mean, really: How will my time be multiplied? What does that even look like? Will hours move slower? Will some days have 36 hours instead of 24?

Alas, I will never know because

"As the heavens are higher than the earth, so are my ways higher than your ways and my thoughts than your thoughts."
Isaiah 55:9

I'm so glad he's in control.

He's faithful to the end.
He's faithful to my heart.

Monday, March 15, 2010

question.



For once in a really long time, I have time to kill on a weekday.

I've been keeping a list of questions that I've had lately, and I thought I'd share them with you.

1. How are we to love other selflessly and yet not let ourselves be mercilessly trampled upon?

2. Given what Matthew 24:14, is Jesus' return really contingent on an action we as humans complete?

3. If God is for us and his will is to make people whole, why aren't our prayers for healing always answered?

4. What does speaking the honest truth with gentleness look like?

5. How do you reconcile restoring people's souls (evangelism) with restoring people's lives (social work)?

6. Why do I get to live like this when they have to live like that?

7. When did it all of a sudden become the government's responsibility to care for the poor? Why didn't the church step up?

8. What does taking up our cross practically look like in our society today?

9. How do we reconcile faith and reason about faith?

10. What's the point of theology if we can never fully know God?

Feel free to leave a comment. I'd be interested to hear what you say.

(Also, yes. The cartoon has nothing to do with this post. Thanks, Google!)

Saturday, March 13, 2010

when heaven meets earth.



And just think: I almost didn't go.

For the past seven days, I have been heavily occupied watching heaven meet earth. And let me be the first to say that when this takes place, crazy things happen. Here's the tale...

Each Spring Break, my church takes about 600 college students on a mission trip. In the past, they traveled to Juarez, Mexico, but due to political complications in recent years, they have taken everyone to a town on the border of Texas called Edinburg. The term town, however, is probably a little misleading. I was under the impression that all 600 of us would overwhelmingly descend upon this "town", and everyone living there would hear the Gospel at least 5 times. Fortunately (or perhaps unfortunately), I was wrong. Edinburg is quite large, certainly as large as, if not larger, than Waco.

My life up until this trip has been incredibly. busy. Not the kind of busy in which you feel like you don't get to see your friends enough or don't have enough time to walk your dog, but in which you are battling exhaustion constantly, never getting a moment to yourself, and totally consumed by one thing (in my case, school). So to be quite frank, my excitement for the trip was rather minimal. All I wanted was to take a week off to sleep and just "be".

But God had different plans.

And if I've learned one thing about God recently, it's that his plans for us are good. Not good like a hamburger good, but good like something-that-just-happened-resonated-with-something-really-deep-inside-my-soul good. Yeah. That good.

So the trip...

Last Saturday morning, 600 college students piled into a bunch of buses and embarked on an 8-hour journey to the land of Edinburg, Texas. In the coming days, they proceeded to share the Gospel with various neighborhoods and witness heaven meeting earth. What that looks like is hard to describe. All I know is that when the glory of the Almighty God's infinitude meets human's depravity and finitude, things get shaken up, the church in Acts comes alive.

This week, I saw the blind receive sight, the lame walk, and the poor hear the good news (Matthew 11:5). All my skepticism went out the window. There's no room for doubt when you pray for a lady's foot and it's healed.

That's what happened the first day we went out on an outreach. Our team was dropped off in a very poor neighborhood known called the "Alamo", but more fondly referred to as "Little Mexico". Most houses were shanties. Undernourished dogs walked the streets. And trash decorated most front yards. We split up into groups of three and four and knocked on doors around the neighborhood to ask people if they needed help around the house or if we could pray for healing in some way.

The third house at which we stopped was where we met Marta. She was cordial but rather disinterested. We asked her if there was anything we could pray for and after a moment of silence, she said we could pray for her niece Desiree, whom she held in her arms. We prayed for Desiree, nothing very specific, and went on our way.

As we were talking to an older couple down the street, Marta rushed up and asked us to come back to her house. A bit perplexed, we finished up what we were doing down the street and headed back to Marta's. She invited us on to the porch and asked us to pray for her mother Maria whose foot had been hurting her for the past four or five months. I looked down and cringed. Her ankle was swollen and quite deformed; it was obvious that walking was quite painful and probably pretty unbearable.

We proceeded to lay hands upon Maria and pray for her foot. We did this three times. Each time we did, the pain subsided a little, and by the third time it was completely gone. To be sure, Maria got up and walked around a bit only to sit back down and assure us that there wasn't any more pain. Marta even pressed on a part of Maria's arch, which just five minutes before had made her flinch in pain, but now it didn't hurt at all.

I was shocked. I was in disbelief. Though I'd heard of this kind of stuff happening, I'd never actually been a part of it. My disbelief was finally shot down when we went back two days later and Maria said the pain was still gone. It was crazy! That's the only way to describe it.

And that's just one of the healings we were a part of throughout the trip. Each day, our team of about 90 people came back with testimonies of healings. And on one day alone we counted that there were over twenty-seven!

Even better though was the incredible number of salvations we saw. As we walked around the neighborhood, we also made it a point to share the Gospel with people. When it comes to this kind of stuff, I'm usually very timid. There's a part of me that assumes that people will say no. There's a part of me that figures everyone's already heard the Gospel because this is America, and if they're not Christians already, it's probably because they don't want to be. As a result, I miss out on helping people receive the greatest gift they could ever receive. (Needless to say, that was convicting, and I'm going to change some things.)

Anyway, back to the neighborhood. As we went around, we found so many people who were hungry and lost spiritually, and a countless number of them accepted the Lord! Plus, we found lots of others who were already believers and were very interested in starting a house church, of sorts. One in particular, named Maria, agreed to host of fiesta at her house on Thursday night. Over thirty of the people we'd interacted with that week came to the event and were eager to maintain community among each other. We have a small team staying back to do follow-up stuff in that area, so in the most basic sense, we planted a church in that neighborhood! If that's not cool, I don't know what is!

On the way home, I found myself chuckling at how different I'm coming back to school than most people. Most will probably have crazy stories, but of a different sort. They'll be returning with a nice tan and with lots of hours of sleep under their belt. And then there's me. I'll have some crazy stories to tell, that's for sure. And I'll be coming back just as pale as I left and with less hours of sleep under my belt than ever.

But I wouldn't trade that for anything because I've learned that

This is what I'm made for. This is what we're all made for. This is life. This is living. This is the kingdom. This is real. This is reality. This is an adventure. This is the adventure.

All of this is just a fraction of what happened while we were there. And all that happened while we were there is just a fraction of what can happen when we call heaven down to earth.

And just think: I almost didn't go.

Wednesday, March 3, 2010

song.

Please purchase the song "Above Every Other Name" by Justin Rizzo.


And prepare to dance.

The end.

Saturday, February 27, 2010

with everything.

Probably my favorite song. Not sure why I haven't ever posted it before.

Please indulge yourself.

Saturday, February 6, 2010

consolation of philosophy.


Other people just say it better than I can:

You who control all the world everlastingly by your own reason,

Sowing the seeds of the earth and the heavens, commanding the eons

To roll from eternity; resting unmoved, you put all things in motion,

You whom no alien causes demanded to fashion creation

From mutable matter, but only the unstinting essence of true good things,

All of them, out and, most splendid yourself, in your own mind you carry

This splendid world and you shape it to mirror your image and likeness,

And you command that its perfect components accomplish perfection.

You bind in number and ratio the elements, ice and flame matching,

Dry matching moist, so there is no flight up for the rarified fire,

Earth is not dragged by its weight to sink down to the depths of the waters.

You center Soul: It unites threefold Nature, sets all things in motion;

You divide Soul and apportion it into harmonious members;

Soul, once divided, collected its motion in two equal orbits,

Moving so as to return to itself, and completely encircling

Mind at the core, so the universe wheels in its image and likeness.

You by like causes bring forth lesser souls; for these lesser creations

You fashion nimble conveyances for a heavenly journey.

You plants these souls in the heavens, in earth; by your generous statutes

You make them turn back toward you and return—a regression of fire.

Grant to the mind, Father, that it may rise to your holy foundations;

Grant it may ring round the source of the Good, may discover the true light,

And fix the soul’s vision firmly on you, vision keen and clear-sighted.

Scatter these shadows, dissolve the dead weight of this earthyl concretion,

Shine in the splendor that is yours alone: only you are the bright sky,

You are serenity, peace for the holy; their goals is to see you;

You are their source, their conveyance, their leader, their path, and their haven.

-Boethius' Consolation of Philosophy-

Thursday, January 28, 2010

beloved.

Home is the center of my being where I can hear the voice that says: "You are my Beloved, on you my favor rests" - the same voice that gave life to the first Adam and spoke to Jesus, the second Adam; the same voice that speaks to all the children of God and sets them free to live in the midst of a dark world while remaining in the light.

I have heard that voice. It has spoken to me in the past and continues to speak to me now. It is the never-interrupted voice of love speaking from eternity and giving life and love whenever it is heard. When I hear that voice, I know that I am home with God and have nothing to fear.

As the Beloved of my heavenly Father, "I can walk in the valley of darkness: no evil would I fear."

As the Beloved, I can "cure the sick, raise the dead, cleanse the lepers, cast out devils."

Having "received without charge," I can "give without charge."

As the Beloved, I can confront, console, admonish, and encourage without fear of rejection or need for affirmation.

As the Beloved, I can suffer persecution without the desire for revenge and receive praise without using it as a proof of my goodness.

As the Beloved, I can be tortured and killed without ever having to doubt that the love that is given to me is stronger than death.

As the Beloved, I am free to live and give life, free also to die while giving life.

-from The Return of the Prodigal Son by Henri Nouwen

Even now here's my heart, God.